coop64

Messed up

2007-04-28T08:41:58Z

http://www.tickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wR8kqKo/ 125 lbs

I just had the worst day ever yesterday and my eating suffered for it. First of all the night before I accidentally stayed out all night drinking. But I didn't drink too much and I hadn't eaten dinner so I figured the calories would balance out. And actually managed to lose 2lbs!

Then yesterday morning and afternoon was fine, stuck to my original plan but then it all went wrong. I tried to have a shower and then found out that the landlord had sneaked into the house and turned the water off without telling us and he's not turning it on again so no showers for the next week and a half until we move out! Yuk! Plus it's worse because we're all doing exams at the moment so you can't have a shower in the morning to wake you up etc.

After getting over the upsetting-ness of that, something worse happened. I was supposed to be moving to london in september with a job that I'm starting and I asked to go there because my boyfriend lives there and for the last year and a half we've been doing the long distance thing. In fact we've never lived in the same place, so this was something to look forward to. Not only have the company not moved me to london, they've actually moved me further away from him to ABERDEEN!!! Going to try and ask them to change it but I don't see it happening :(

So I just ended up getting really miserable and crying lots which then led me to eat a doughnut (!) a fish finger sandwich (!) and worst of all - pizza (!!)

As a result of my bingeing I've put on 2lbs since yesterday :( hasn't really helped to improve my mood. But today I will have to just start again and hope for the best. If I can get another pound off by tomorrow then I'll be happy and not feel like a complete failure.

Drinking

2007-04-27T08:48:35Z

123 lbs

Yesterday I had 2 bowls of cereal and my ryvita combination plus milk for teas etc thought I didn't finish my allowance. All was going well.

Then I went to the pub. Just for one....

Which then ended up being tequila, apple sourz, pints of fun, pints of beer and I don't know what else. Now I have still lost 2lbs since yesterday but I know thats just because I've lost loads of water due to the drinking. I'm so scared today that when I start eating and drinking again the scale tomorrow is going to be higher. Not quite sure what to do about it though.

So far I've eaten cereal and had a cup of tea. Maybe if I just don't eat too much today and drink plenty of water the scale will keep going down...

Count

2007-04-26T11:25:46Z

So far I've had

Breakfast = all bran + milk = 170 cals
Lunch = 2 ryvita + cream cheese + half a tomato = 100 cals

I'm going to have another bowl of cereal before I go to my exam so that I won't be hungry so thats
Cereal = 170 cals

Plus 100 cals allowed for milk.

I measured out my milk allowance today to see how much I actually use but its only 12.30pm and I've already used most of it and I've only had 1 cup of coffee and 1 cup of tea. I must have been drinking way more milk than I thought because I usually drink like 8 cups of tea and coffee in a day. Eek! I'll have to be more controlled now about it.

Hopefully I won't need to have anything after my exam so total for today = 540

It still means I can have something else if I need to but I'm going to try really hard not to and get an early night so I won't be hungry. Plus my exam doesn't finish til 5.30pm and I've decided not to eat after 6pm so I probably won't have time to eat anything anyway. I'm so excited about keeping this up!

coop64 @ 2007-04-26T06:19:00

2007-04-26T05:23:15Z

125.4

I pretty much did what I planned to yesterday, although I had an extra bowl of cereal because I was revising so late, and I also put a bit of cream cheese on my ryvita. So I counted that to be another 200 calories altogether. But that's ok because it was still within my allowance and I've managed to lose a pound since yesterday so I'm not complaining.

Just going to do the same thing again today and see if I can lose another pound by tomorrow. But this is good because it means I've already reached one of my short term goal weights which I was giving myself to the end of the week to get to because I thought it would take much longer because I'm eating so many calories. Anyway fingers crossed I can keep this up! :)

Calories

2007-04-25T10:02:09Z

Having looked at other people's journals I think a flaw in my plan is that I'm not writing down exactly what I'm eating so I can just ignore it if I go off track because there's no evidence and I can get away with it. Well no more!

Today so far I have had

1 bowl of all bran + milk = 170 cals (I weighed it all out and thats what it says on the side of the box)

For lunch I'll have 2 Ryvita and a tomato = 86 cals

Dinner I'll try and just have another bowl of cereal to make up for my bingeing yesterday = 170 cals

And I'll allow 100 cals for milk in tea and coffee

So for today intake = 526

Technically that leaves me with 230 ish calories if I get really hungry left over to still be under my maximum intake

Fingers crossed!

Wednesday

2007-04-25T09:14:29Z

126.4 lbs

Didn't have the best day food-wise yesterday but I was so drained after my exam that I lost any self control I might have had. But still managed to lose half a pound since yesterday so thats not too bad. Hopefully I can lose another 1-2lbs by the end of the week.

Today I'm going to be really focused and do loads of work and revision and be so busy studying I won't feel any desire to eat :)
Well that's the plan anyway....